Friday, February 13, 2009
Here I Go Again...
I won't make this long today. I am short on words this morning, kinda nervous but I wanted to give my love to everyone. I am getting ready to leave for my breast biopsies. I go in around noon so hopefully I will be home by 4 or 5 PM maybe sooner.
My boys are still asleep. No school for them today. They are enjoying the break. Today is the day! Scary, hopeful, nervous, sword drawn... I wish this wasn't happening, but it is. Period. So while Johnny and I head to the hospital, the boys are going to spend some time with family and friends. My mom is going to stay at home with the boys this morning, my dad is at work, Morgen is taking the boys this afternoon and Johnny has taken the day off to be with me.
My parents 40th wedding anniversary party is next weekend. I have been planning this for a while. Family is coming in and so are old friends. I will have news by mid week, but I don't want "cancer" to overshadow their celebration. So this is the deal: If these tests come back negative I will shout it from the roof tops, but if they come back positive, I will wait to post the news until after my parents party.
Two biopsies, one ultrasound guided the other a Stereotactic biopsy. I don't want to do this. I really don't. I can see a light at the end of this tunnel, I just can't seem to get there fast enough. Just know I love each of you. You are my extended family, my lifeline and a great source of hope in my life, in my fight with this beast.
So here we go...