When our mom was diagnosed with breast cancer I was really scared she was going to die. I saw my mom struggling. That bothered me. Mom was always in control and it made me nervous to see her struggle so much with something so bad. I had never seen her so weak before. I tried hard to be strong for her. When I was feeling the worst and needed to get my mind off the cancer I would go outside.
I was nervous a lot and so I had to go see the school counselor almost everyday. I didn't mind that so much because Mrs. Z was always good to me. My brother Micah and I went to a special group for kids whose parents had cancer. Other days I just went to see Mrs. Z because I needed to get away from everyone. Sometimes I just needed to sit and be still. I liked that Mrs. Z let me do that. My teachers worried about me. I just couldn't concentrate .School was really hard for me too. Mrs. S and Mrs. N took good care of me though. I knew they cared about both my mom and me because they asked about her a lot.Our family really struggled during those times. I heard my mom and dad talking about money all the time. I worried sometimes about how they were going to pay the bills. My school helped a lot. A lot of the people in my school even made us meals. They didn't let us go without anything!
Now we celebrate her life and everyday we have with her. I worry my Mom is getting sick again, but I know together we can be strong. Disney World is a apart of our family, our history and our memories. Disney will always be those things to us because no matter Mommy's outcome we will always celebrate her courage.
Now my life is different. I'm in 6Th grade. I still talk to the counselor sometimes. I'm not scared anymore, but I do worry. I don't want to grow up without my Mom. I want to have her here with me forever. I asked her once why God let this happen to us. Know what she told me? She said that God knew we were strong enough to handle it. So I want to be strong. I will walk every year for a cure and wear pink for my mom. I will always do that. I will always be strong for my Mom, always.