"WARNING: Reflections in this mirror may be distorted by socially constructed ideas of 'beauty'." ~ Anonymous
What I'm not, is a competitive person, and I never have been. If anything, I have been willing to take a step back giving the spotlight to others. I prefer being behind the curtain, giving props and applause to those I see as more deserving. It's who I am, part of my character. But that doesn't always mean I'm less than anyone else in the room. And that is the lesson of Life Lesson #134 ~ The Girl In the Mirror. What do I see today when I look at my own reflection? Well, I see the woman I was created to be, imperfect, chipped, blemished, dented and stained. But I also recognize I've found myself and my place in this world. After all there is great truth in Maya Angelou's words, "A woman in harmony with her spirit is like a river flowing. She goes where she will without pretense. And arrives at her destination, prepared to be herself and only herself." And that is my truth as well. I'm content with the life I've been given, the life I'm living. I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I'm not looking to appear happier or to be living a better life than anyone else. I am simply fulfilled. Even on the bad days when I'm sad or when things aren't going perfectly I'm content. I know my value and it's not based on the image I see in the mirror but in the reality of who my Father created me to be. I guess you could say, I've reached a place in my life where I fully understand that even with all my flaws, Ecclesiastes 3:11 is true, "He has made everything beautiful in its time."
As the woman I have become today, I've started pulling back the curtain covering the girl in the mirror. I have stepped out of the shadows finally. And I'm beginning to look more often at my reflection through my Father's eyes rather than my own. At 43, I write not to impress or prove my happiness to anyone. Simply I take pen to paper because it's how I breathe, how my pieces cohesively work together, how I find the parts of me not yet sorted and how I've learned to accept the girl staring back in the mirror. What I know, is that my life is my own, unique to my Father's design and no one, no matter how hard they may try can be me, nor I them. I haven't in any way arrived at my final destination but I do have a heading. Through trial and error, I have slowly come to understand ,"A woman who walks in purpose doesn't have to chase people or opportunities. Her light causes people and opportunities to pursue her." What I'm working on now is letting the passionate, creative woman I am out of her cage. It's taken a long time for me to get here, to accept I have worth in a world full of absurd and ridiculous expectations, but I'm on my way. I am now capable of living and breathing, embracing and revealing the girl and the woman I truly have become. I am no longer afraid of facing myself in the mirror even when I'm struggling with what I see. I understand my worth, even if those that judge me do not.
My advice? Stop trying to prove yourself to people and just be the original authentic you that you are. Go on, take a look, see the beautiful woman God has created you to be. And hold on to the powerful words of Scott Stabile as you do. "Let them judge you. Let them misunderstand you. Let them gossip about you. Their opinions aren't your problem. You stay kind, committed to love, and free in your authenticity. No matter what they do or say, don't you dare doubt your worth or the beauty of your truth. Just keep shining like you do." So go on, pull back the curtain. Take a good look at the girl in the mirror and see yourself as your Heavenly Father does...beautifully imperfect.
"Be yourself, no matter what other people think. God made you the way you are for a reason. Besides, an original is always worth more than a copy." ~ D.I. Quotes